You are a strong person Johnny, the loss combined with two open caskets within two weeks is a hell of a hammer blow. Sadness is a real soul stealer and loss is the saddest thing of all. I think you lose part of yourself when grief hits a certain level and I'm not sure you ever get it back. Talking about it helps me; it spreads the weight over a larger surface and become easier to deal with. Keep posting here if it helps.

-------------------------
I was right.